Questions not usually asked

Questions not usually asked:

• 1: Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
• Closed, if they remain open I just hope that the mothballs work...cuz I wouldn't like to see my fave shirts with holes in them, right?
• 2: Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?
• Yeah, actually my dad was the one who used to do that. But yeah, I mean...I payed for them, c'mon! They're mine (muahahaha)
• 3: Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
• In, otherwise my OC-self would be very pissed at the idea of that not being tucked in!
• 4: Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
• WHAT? No...no, never. How could I do that? I mean...I'm tiny! I'm a short little brunette hobbit!
• 5: Do you like to use post-it notes?
• ALL THE TIME! I can't live without them, I tend to forget everything!
• 6: Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?
• Yep, always, especially the ones from the subway or train tickets...and then they end up stored in my "memories box".
• 7: Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?
• Bear, bear! I've already been attacked by my own bees and I am allergic so...bear, definitely bear!
• 8: Do you have freckles?
• Yeah, I do. I love them 
• 9: Do you always smile for pictures?
• Yep, I love smiling!
• 10: What is your biggest pet peeve?
• When people who are around me fall asleep. It just gets on my nerves! Just go to your bed, don't fall asleep on the table while I'm still having dinner!
• 11: Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
• Always, I kinda have OCD
• 12: Have you ever peed in the woods?
• I bet that ,as a little girl, I did.
• 13: What about pooped in the woods?
• NO!!! 
• 14: Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing?
• Yep, I make my own music!
• 15: Do you chew your pens and pencils?
• Used to. Now to avoid doing that I put toys at the pencil's end. Problem solved
• 16: How many people have you slept with this week?
• None, it's just me and my pillow down here having the time of our lives...sleeping!
• 17: What size is your bed?
• I have no idea...
• 18: What is your Song of the week?
• Bulletproof - La Roux
• 19: Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
• Yeah, why not?
• 20: Do you still watch cartoons?
• Yup, never get tired of them.
• 21: What's your least favorite movie?
• Any movie starring Sylvester Stallone
• 22: Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?
• Good question....I don't know. It's a secret!
• 23: What do you drink with dinner?
• Non-sparkling water
• 24: What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
• Barbecue sauce :)
• 25: What is your favorite food?
• McDonald's Nuggets! 
• 26: What movies could you watch over and over and still love?
• Pride and Prejudice mainly and A summer in a sea shell 2 (It's a Slovenian one...I grew up with it) :)
• 27: Last person you kissed/kissed you?
• I don't kiss and tell
• 28: Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
• No, never.
• 29: Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?
• No, probably not.
• 30: When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
• Yesterday.
• 31: Can you change the oil on a car?
• Pff...NO!
• 32: Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
• No, I don't know how to drive.
• 33: Ever ran out of gas?
• Does a family vacation when I was a kid count? Cuz then the answer would be "Oh, yes!"
• 34: Favorite kind of sandwich?
• Croque monsieur 
• 35: Best thing to eat for breakfast?
• Nutella with bread and a tea.
• 36: What is your usual bedtime?
• 3, 4 am?
• 37: Are you lazy?
• Yeah...kinda
• 38: When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?
• I only dressed up once for English class. I was the wicked witch. The costume is out here somewhere.
• 39: What is your Chinese astrological sign?
• Dragon
• 40: How many languages can you speak?
• 4
• 41: Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
• No, not at the moment.
• 42: Which are better: legos or lincoln logs?
• I need to Google that...
• 43: Are you stubborn?
• Very
• 44: Who is better...Leno or Letterman?
• Letterman FTW! He just makes me laugh so hard every time I watch him! 
• 45: Ever watch soap operas?
• Sorry...did you mean: My life?
• 46: Are you afraid of heights?
• Yeah...super afraid. Not my thing...
• 47: Do you sing in the car?
• I sing everywhere I go, not just the car!
• 48: Do you sing in the shower?
• Of course!
• 49: Do you dance in the car?
• Yup, when I'm allowed...
• 50: Ever used a gun?
• No, never
• 51: Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
• Last week, by my best friend whom I love :)
• 52: Do you think musicals are cheesy?
• No, they are the best thing in the world...duh!
• 53: Is Christmas stressful?
• Yep, very much. At least for me
• 54: Ever eat a pierogi?
• A what?
• 55: Favorite type of fruit pie?
• Lemon pie (but I never tried it, I just love Lemons)
• 56: Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
• Vet and Doctor
• 57: Do you believe in ghosts?
• Yes, I believe in everything supernatural
• 58: Ever had a Deja-vu feeling?
• Very, very often
• 59: Take a vitamin daily?
• Used to, not anymore
• 60: Wear slippers?
• 24/7
• 61: Wear a bath robe?
• Nah, the last time I wore one was when I was getting my hair and make up done before my quince party. 
• 62: What do you wear to bed?
• PJ's or old shorts and old t-shirts
• 63: First concert?
• Hmm....concert per se was in 2009: Jonas Brothers
• 64: Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
• Target
• 65: Nike or Adidas?
• Adidas
• 66: Cheetos Or Fritos?
• Cheetos!!!!
• 67: Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
• Sunflower seeds! :) 
• 68: Ever heard of the group Tres Bien?
• Nope...but I'll check them out
• 69: Ever took dance lessons?
• Yup, once
• 70: Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
• Does musician count?
• 71: Can you curl your tongue?
• Nope
• 72: Ever won a spelling bee?
• Nope...but I don't have spelling mistakes. I took grammar classes when I was 6 to improve my writing skills. 
• 73: Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
• Yup, usually at parties.
• 74: Own any record albums?
• Lots of 'em
• 75: Own a record player?
• Yep, and it still works.
• 76: Regularly burn incense?
• Everyday, I have a collection!
• 77: Ever been in love?
• Yup, once.
• 78: Who would you like to see in concert?
• Lady Gaga or Adele.
• 79: Which was the last concert you attended?
• Jason Mraz in 2009 
• 80: Hot tea or cold tea?
• Hot tea
• 81: Tea or coffee?
• Tea! (But coffee is very very addictive too)
• 82: Sugar or snickerdoodles?
• Snickerdoodles, because now for me, after a year of Snickerdoodles...sugar just tastes funny. 
• 83: Can you swim well?
• I haven't swam in years! But yeah...I can.
• 84: Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
• Yup, I do it when I have hiccups. Works all the time.
• 85: Are you patient?
• Nah, not so much.
• 86: DJ or band, at a wedding?
• Band!
• 87: Ever won a contest?
• Yup...as a kid I used to win at every birthday party. I have like 8 awards because I was a radio-addict. I knew every freakin' song!
• 88: Ever had plastic surgery?
• No but...who knows about the future, right?
• 89: Which are better: black or green olives?
• Green olives I guess...they're not my cup of tea.
• 90: Can you knit or crochet?
• No, but always wanted to
• 91: Best room for a fireplace?
• Living room
• 92: Do you want to get married?
• No, never in a thousand years
• 93: If married, how long have you been married?
• ------
• 94: Who was your HS crush?
• My best friend
• 95: Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?
• No, I don't cry...I just try harder and harder until I reach my goal. 
• 96: Do you have kids?
• No
• 97: Do you want kids?
• Not really
• 98: What's your favorite color?
• Blue
• 99: Do you miss anyone right now?
• Yup, I do. But he's watching over me. 

Touché

Thank God for those years of therapy! 
Now I can express no strings attached what I think. Don't get me wrong...I don't like the idea of someone else going to therapy because of my "complaints and annoyance", or that's what my mother says. 
I went to therapy in the first place because I needed some advice on my career but it turned out to be mostly about those fights at home and how to deal with those situations.
I remember always being the one to blame for no apparent reason. And it hurt. I think is something that usually happens when a family member passes away. You get to see your family members without their masks on and you may or may not be prepared to see such things. If mom had a fight with my brother she would say that WE were a disgrace, that WE were the ones to blame..." And I would be in my room just listening to some music or painting just thinking to myself: Why me? 
The other day while talking to one of my best friends after coming back from a party, we realized that it always happens the same. She is going through the same situation that I went through in 2007-2008 and probably 2009. My psychologist might have been a complete idiot when it came to avoiding awkward silences and not remembering a thing that I said about my past (including names, ages, places) but she taught me some good stuff. And now, I can go and give advice to my friend and tell her that it will be alright. She has started therapy already and has a lovely boyfriend that supports her. That's great! :) It took me a year after my dad died to finally wake up and say: I might need some help, I need to get this out off my chest. And I did, proving myself that I was stronger than what the world had seen up until there. 
Now it's my mum's turn. I don't know her reasons...well, she made it quite clear today while arguing with grandma. Let's face it...grandma is old, next year she's turning 90 and you know how old people are: the get easily annoyed. She isn't accustomed at us living our chaotic life, inviting friends, going out at night and she usually makes a big of a deal of everything. And then those who have nothing to do with it,  have to listen to complaints and stuff. (Welcome to my life during 2008!) An then my mum bursts in my door and starts shouting because no one answered the door when the men for the swimming pool maintenance came! I kept my pace. I was like: "first calm down and then tell me because that's not how things work right now for me. I'm tired of arguing because of stupid things. Now you see how bad it is to have to listen to complaints when you had nothing to do in that argument on the first place?" 
And she went on saying that I should stop playing the victim. I'm not...I've told her that I'm way past that period of my life thanks to therapy and that insight of myself trying to find the real me after our lives changed. I finished by saying that I was now the leading lady of my own movie, stronger than before and ready to leave that awful past behind. She just left...and probably all this will be out tonight at the dinner table. Ugh. 
Probably most of you will think that I'm not right, but you should have been there when all the arguing was going on right next to me. That's why I started writing in the first place. I'm really happy with myself right now. I admire this new me that has blossomed, everyone says that to me and it makes me feel amazing. But this arguing really needs to stop. I won't tolerate it anymore, my father wouldn't like to see us like this.
Guys, just don't be afraid and stand up to the world. Be the real you in the world, don't be afraid to take chances. Make a difference!