I'm sure that there's a reason for destiny choosing THIS day for me to start writing again. And it was just because of an amazing post that the amazing Julia wrote this week in her blog.
I believe that only a few people know that I'm adopted, and I don't know why I've never told them. Maybe because I just feel as much a part of my family as any biological daughter/son. There have been so many times when I thought: "If this amazing woman and man hadn't adopted me, where would I be right now?" They have given me the best life that a girl could have asked for, I am the woman that I am today because of them. And every day I realize that even though we aren't biologically related, we have lots of things in common. I don't go walking through life thinking "I'M ADOPTED", I just say to myself: "I have a family, an amazing family, that dreamed about me and wished to have me in their lives."
I won't deny thinking and praying for my biological mother every night before going to sleep. I remember finding out her name and where she lived. That, I will never forget. I pray for her soul and wish her the best if she's still alive somewhere. She gave me life and for reasons that I don't know decided to put me in adoption. Luckily, God acts in mysterious ways and found my perfect match and here I am, 23 years later, sitting in a bedroom, warm in my bed on the 4th anniversary of my father's death. Today, despite of remembering him and regretting those last words I should have said, I got amazing news, a day full of beautiful moments; feeling his presence in this moments that life is offering me.
It was my father's dream to bring me home that mother's day in 1988, which also is my mother's birthday, and it was his decision to give me and themselves the amazing gift of life. I was reborn from that very first moment when they held me, that small baby girl with dark hair, and decided to call me their daughter.
I dreamed about them too, but never thought that life would be as generous as it was, is and will be. I wouldn't change a single thing about my life...because life gave me the most precious thing: LOVE and an AMAZING family....
